Wednesday, December 22, 2021

Semi-Random Thoughts

Semi-random thoughts on coming up on the end of the year.

I'm fortunate that I can look around at this time of year and look for folks that can use a few bucks; not yet anywhere close to the point of one of my heroes, the gentleman around these parts that yearly manages to slip a double-eagle coin (i.e. one Troy ounce of solid gold) into a red kettle without being 'caught', but I'll get there someday. This year, due to the tornadoes in the U.S. that started this month, and the floods in Malaysia as I write, I'm reminded that, whatever my personal concerns about the International Red Cross and the Salvation Army, what those organizations do in the immediacy of a crisis is peerless, necessary, and a blessing. I can save my gripes about them for encouraging both organizations to strive for always getting better, not for getting in their way when they're doing the work.

That said, there are also many other folks involved in both crises, and the others besetting our little world. If you're able, seek out and give where you can. May any such blessings you are able to give, especially the good voice in your heart, be multiplied a thousand-fold.

On other subjects:

I couldn't help thinking of the Big Chill when I read Cassandra Khaw's Nothing But Blackened Teeth. Which means soundtrack. Which, for me at least, for this story I think the sountrack lies somewhere between, on the one hand, New Order, Depeche Mode, and Ministry, and on the other hand 30 Seconds to Mars, Linkin Park, and Evanescence? Maybe something more EDM, Prodigy? I dunno, there's a thousand threads here, which I know all seem like Shirley Manson's territory, but either way Nothing But Blackened Teeth just seems to demand music from this stream.

A mentor/hero/idol figure will always fuck you if you let the relationship stay that way for too long. There's a certain point where, if they're doing their job right, you're supposed to become their peer, not their employee/sidekick/follower perpetual. This I think is where the "Never meet your heroes/Never revisit your faves" bit comes from. We all have that moment where we see the feet of clay, whether it's a book the suck-fairy hit up while we weren't looking, or a person we 'should' have learned to treat with a little more distance. It's hard though, isn't it? There's almost always a reason we never wanted to think of them as just another member of this poor fallen mortal choir...

Working definition of a peer: not Reviewer 2. Nor really Rev 1. Rev 3, the one who kicks your ass and tells you what you did right, that's the magic combination.

Rev 2 just pisses me off, they're picking a fight just to pick one. Rev 1 I never know whether to trust someone who blows smoke up my ass; that, or I recognized the reviewer's writing and discounted it due the friendship. Rev 3, on the other hand, is where I always tried to land: here are the things I'm worried about, here's how to fix them, and here's where I think you really hit the good stuff.

Outside of an explicit peer setting, and my real and total life friends and family, how often have I encountered this?

Approximately never. Real collaborations are a rare and precious thing. I dunno, maybe I just have a different view of what collaboration means; more likely though is that, just like real love or real friendship, there are only a few people out there that we can really and truly work with on a peer-to-peer basis for extended periods. The literature examples I know of seem to bear this out.

Mark Lawrence's Red/Grey/Holy Sister trilogy was a fun ride. So too the autobiographies of Keith Richards, Dave Grohl, and Mel Brooks.

Holy crap did I read a lot of LitRPG/GameLit fiction this year. To the point of forgetting, which is normal for me when I find a new story niche to explore. Will I write any? No, but that doesn't mean I didn't learn anything from my sojourn here. A lot of fun stuff, but I'll be honest, there's so much here that I did read that I'm not really seeing any titles that I'd say "You've got to read this". Instead I'd have to say, just dive in, if you pick a "book 1" and can handle the conventions, and persist a little, you'll find your way I think. The genre definitely seems to have found its space, that's for sure.

A friend at work turned me onto a band called The Warning, from Monterey, Mexico, they're an absolute blast. A sister trio, imagine Heart if they'd had a sister on the drums and you're in the right ballpark. Very real chops here, and their songwriting approach is going in some really fun sonic directions as the sisters grow into their world. I really look forward to seeing where they're headed.

I'm looking forward to next year, and hoping that it comes up well for you all, dear readers, as well. We'll get there, I promise.

Sure it's a bumpy ride, but that's what we pay our nickles for, isn't it? I'm up for the ride if you are. Come with me, let's see what they've got.

Sunday, December 12, 2021

Winter's Creeping

I keep trying to re-do some of my daily reading habits. Trying and failing, a little better each time.

Some years ago, I realized just how many web sites I had in my everyday bookmarks folder, and how much time I spent each day reading the whole lot. Even the ones that were updated only weekly or what have you.

So I pared them back quite a bit. Plus, over the past couple of years, I've even eliminated web browsing from the computer almost entirely. But there's the phone. Oy.

Even without setting up favorites or anything, thanks to autocomplete all I need to spend hours of web browsing is to have a vague memory of the web address, and autocomplete does the rest.

The problem isn't all of the wonderful writers that I visit, the problem is that I've only so many hours a day, and so much time for conversations that I'm actually part of.

So that's working about as well as you can imagine. Ah well, I'll get there.

So other than the oh so transient web, what have I been reading that's interesting? I've got quite a list of reads according to my electronic library, and the majority of them were well worth the hours of enjoyment.

But of those hours I've really enjoyed lately, the ones that I keep returning to are those I spent watching Michaela DePrince and company in a really wild and interesting version of Coppelia.

I won't get much into it, other than to say that melding animation with live ballet wasn't what I expected when I tuned in. I also wasn't expecting what is, if I understand the history correctly, traditionally a comedy ballet to have been turned into a Grimm Brothers version.

Unexpected. But absolutely delightful. My poor wife was traumatized, though, the dolls of the animation were far too much for her. Me I was enraptured; I suspect this is one of those that I will stop for whenever it comes around again.

The story itself came across in a way that I don't usually have in ballet. For me, like with most classical music, ballet is impressionistic, rather than the more direct realism of written or spoken text with respect to story.

The combination of live action ballet and animation here absolutely reached through my normal sort of broad focus taking it in viewing and came alive in the immediate sense of story, here and now. And without the sort of old-guy narrator that Nuryev and Baryshnikov's various appearences used to require to let us know what they were up to besides the obvious.

First time for me seeing Michaela DePrince dance as an adult, as well. I'd heard so many wonderful things about her since she came to the public attention, and I absolutely fell in love with her dancework.

Hers and the rest of the team, both the company itself and some of the marquis names that guested with Michaela.

All of this is a longwinded way of saying, if you like your fairytales and your ballet, seek out Coppelia from PBS/Great Performances, it's an absolutely must-see.

Thursday, December 2, 2021

Am I Doing Alright?

Am I Doing Alright?

Always with the existential questions, Moriarty...

Yeah, I'm doing pretty ok. So what happened then?

Burnout, that's all. A little more than a year ago, I had one of "Those" calls from work. The kind where I have to tell my family I'm headed out on the road and I don't know when I'll be back. In this case, it was a fortnight and done, but by the time we managed it I'd reached the point where I was ready to ask the hotel what kind of rate they'd give me if I booked a month at a time.

I was kind of burnt out on the day job after that one. Fortunately, I recognized it for what it was and so, by the time I got a similar phone call a couple months back, I was both prepared in wellness and mind and body, and able to pace myself a little better over the weeks I was on the road. These sorts of emergencies are part of the gig, I get it.

Which is why much of the past year, for me, has been spent looking at my daily and re-working my mind. I've been through it before, you see. I'm susceptible to it, I spend years at a time focused on technical, difficult questions of the kind that require that kind of focus and thought.

When it catches up to me, I tend to lose a year or so before I get my head on straight again. At least this time I didn't run off to join the circus.

Ok, and what's that got to do with writing, then?

Well, dear reader, I thought I could plow straight on through with the writing. More or less anyway, I'm sure you've noticed that I haven't put out any books over that time period, just the short stories I posted here. So I did know that I needed to address myself to myself on the writing front, as well.

I just put it off, you see. Until I couldn't.

Or, rather, not the writing. But my writing was the most obvious symptom. The act of it is still just as joyous.

When I can drag myself to the chair. And there I finally recognized the problem. I couldn't get to the chair to write, except under pain of posting here.

I couldn't get to a chair to play guitar, either. And then it hit my reading again. See, that's what happened the second time I burnt myself out completely.

I couldn't read fiction anymore. A book a day reader, and I couldn't finish a goddamned one of them. Up against the wall, you bastards... and if it's never happened to you, I can't even begin to tell you how broken that can make you feel.

I went for years like that, only able to read a couple fiction books a year, and those only from authors I knew and trusted that I could sit with and get lost for hours. New voices were too hard a lift for me.

I got better. But now I'm not just reading, I'm writing. So I have to figure out what makes it fun.

The start of it was realizing that publishing a story here once a week had run its course for me. I've always had a problem with practicing; I can't do it. Not the way "normal" folks do it, anyway.

I have to play games with myself. And once a game becomes work or a habit, I have to change what I do and quick.

Or I'll quit and lose all progress. The grey matter's a funky old place where it sits between my ears I admit.

For now, what that means is that I will be going back to a much more free form of posting for a while. I'll need to be able to tell myself that I don't have to do anything that I don't want to.

Note well, that doesn't at all mean that I don't have story projects I want to do. Oh, no, dear reader, you're not getting away from me that easy. Keep the faith, all. Be well. Take care of yourselves, please, and when the voices in your head start warning you of trouble pay attention.

And thank you for sticking around.

Friday, November 12, 2021

Gone Fishin'

Nothing exciting going on, me and mine are doing ok. What's happened for story this week?

One of the perils of a day job, dear reader. My schedule has been drifting in some subtle ways the past couple months, year really now that I look at it. And it caught up to me this week.

No worries. I've actually already done most of the work involved in working out where I'm losing hours. So, expect a couple of weeks of hit or miss and we'll be back to whatever counts as normal around here.

Take care and be well.

Thursday, November 4, 2021

Resolution To Dominance

I've had glimpses of another of Pikka's adventures floating at the edge of my mind for a few weeks now. A knife, an unwelcome knock at the door, a flute carved from memory and remorse. There are stories that you capture in the moment, others that come and go and wait for another day.

This one refused to let go. And thus, for this week's story dear reader, let us once more return to Pikka The Wizard.

Resolution To Dominance - a tale of Pikka the Unsure by M. K. Dreysen

When the musician set his fire, he had only thoughts of the camp. A ring of stones, a passable collection of leaves, a tarp hung carefully over a likely limb. Visitors weren't much on his mind.

So when the wizard stepped from her shadows, the musician had to catch his surprise before it got away from him. "An unexpected honor," he said while pausing his hand above the ancient bone flute that always rested within his reach.

"I don't mean to intrude," she replied. "Do you?"

"Of course. Please, please," he said, the hand that had reached for the instrument now gesturing a true-meant welcome. "You've come far?"

As the wizard settled, she pulled dried meat, a wrinkled carrot and similarly wizened bundle of wild onions, and other tidbits from her pack. The musician, hiding his discomfort at offering only the tools to cook with, began working on the soup.

The only sounds then, until after the little pot had settled into its bubbling work, were those of the fire and the comfort of the pairs of hands moving in concert. With the occasional grunt or sniff or mumble over whether the mix needed a pinch of salt or pepper.

"I've been hunting plants this year," Pikka eventually answered. "You know of Yhunnara's theory?"

The musician moved his head side to side, neither yes nor no. "I've only heard summaries. She's..."

"Reluctant to put her ideas into writing until they've been fully realized," the wizard agreed. "What I have heard, though, sent me in a new direction." Pikka raised her eyebrow in question.

The musician smiled. "Please continue."

Pikka shrugged, almost embarrassed; asking before running full tilt into her latest theory had been a difficult habit to learn. "I've been considering the physical systems by which various plants pull nutrients into their..."

The musician nodded along, the faint smile always tugging at his lips. When Pikka eventually ran down, he bowed his head to her. "You're going to discover something, I think."

"You flatter me."

"No, truly. We all of us want grand gestures. You humble me with your focus on the fundamentals."

Pikka tilted her head to the side, then whistled the first few bars of a tune. Around the pair, the fire danced a little higher, the shadows piroutted in response, and the wind paused to listen.

The musician stiffened at the melody, then relaxed and allowed his smile to come again, though wistfully. "I almost forget, sometimes..."

Pikka raised an eyebrow.

The musician sighed, and all around the wind, the shadows, the fire, and more than a few animals that would have denied it to the end of days settled in to listen. "The town I just left. They were, are, troubled." He reached automatically for the flute, running his fingers over the holes and the faint hints of carving. "I almost lost something there."

Pikka assumed. "Your flute?"

"No," he snorted. "That will never leave me. No, something I hold truly dear. My sense of hope."

****

Pikka later wondered if she should have passed the town of Daenlis by.

It would have been easy. Daenlis sat between lake and trails; mine to the north, lake and fur trade and always those passing from one to another. The musician had warned her of Daenlis Town's view of the world.

That those who passed through were valued only for what gold they could provide.

Thus, the sheriff and his minions. "I've been hired to insure the peace and prosperity of Daenlis Town," the sheriff often said.

Those same things for travelers, of course, being entirely unsaid and unmeant.

Pikka resigned herself, on entering the town's borders, to carving on the oak pieces she'd picked up and keeping her business to herself. "Just passing through." Knowing that the weight of something to occur built above her head.

"I'm a deputy of Daenlis, you'll open in the name of the law." He may have been a deputy, but when he eventually tried to shoulder the door open, he died just as readily as though he'd still been the road brigand he'd begun as. Pikka left his body nailed to the sheriff's steps.

With certain bits dangling from his mouth. Pikka did admit that might have been what led to the confrontation with the other deputies. Pikka allowed them to encircle her, the four of them, while she tested the balance of a freshly carven oak rod.

It was incomplete; it would serve. "You'll defend an attempted rapist, then?"

"He worked for the town. You, on the other hand, are no one. Just another road bum waiting to meet your just end."

Pikka smirked. Then she concentrated and thrust, full balanced weight, just so. The confrontational one gasped, once. The rod had never come within feet of the man's solar plexus. But nonetheless its highly sharpened point was now decorated with his blood.

And that of the others. Four bodies, wounded identically, drifted down to the dust while Pikka walked to the sheriff's office. "You've four more you'll need to account for," she told the smirking bastard on the other side of the desk.

"You did for them? I'll believe it when I see it." He moved, except he didn't.

What he moved was the force of storm and fire, lightning and fire aura dancing from the Nowhere to the here that he'd bound.

"No wonder," Pikka muttered. And then she began her walk. A step as a flame consumed the space behind, a stutter between lightning arcs, another stutter, and then one long stride between beats.

The rod... something had made her put aside her thoughts of Plants for one particular type of oak sapling. One that had been uprooted by the fall of an older cousin, struck by lightning and finding its last rest among a thicket of wrist's width saplings. The one that she needed, for whatever reason, had been uprooted; it had sat there for a year and a bit, aging, drying.

Waiting for the knife's edge that cut it down to a good handle, and a strong point, a point that pierced the sheriff's brain stem and left a bit less than six feet of lever for Pikka to pin the magician's body in place while his contingeny spells sparked.

Years and years agone, a much younger Pikka had struggled through a half-year's training with an old battle wizard, a king's former guard who'd come to the University for a place to rest his oft-broken bones in something like peace and quiet.

"You need to concentrate on the metal of the arrowhead. Reject it utterly from your mind, and then from your body." Old Urx's training was more than painful. "You'll need to do it even when you're unconscious. When you can do that, you'll always have a chance to recover before they can finish you."

"Why just the metal and not the wood?" Pikka had asked.

Urx had shrugged. "What kind of damned fool attacks a wizard with nothing but a wooden stick? Concentrate your efforts on the most likely case."

Pikka didn't think the sheriff-magician had had the benefit of Old Urx's wisdom; on the other hand, the oak sapling had been calling her name for some reason. She pondered the ways of plants for the long minutes it took for the magician's spells to wind themselves down to nothing but a scorched outline on the floor.

The worst part was the way the town watched her as she walked away. Bitter stares weighted with something Pikka didn't want to understand.

A lonely little house sat at the edge of the town, separate from the other buildings, half in the boundary and half without. A kid ran down from the steps just as Pikka crossed that unmarked line. "You can't... can't you stay and help us?"

Pikka looked back. A handful of the people of the town had started poking around the bodies in the dirt. None had yet dared the sheriff's office. "You mean, can I stay and help you?"

The kid followed her gaze. Then he turned to his house. "Will it come for mom?"

Pikka sighed. Then she reached into a pocket and pulled out a bag of coin.

From the other pocket, she pulled a book, and a flute. Not so old as the musician's, she'd used the taproot of the old lightning struck oak. It would bear her signature to those who knew of such things. "The book's a start. The coins are a gateway to somewhere else."

"What's the flute for?"

Pikka shrugged. "Tell you the truth, kid? I'm not really all that sure. There are people on your journey who can help you see the world in a new way. When you meet them, show them the flute."

"How will I know who they are?"

"Listen to the wind." And then the wizard left that place.

Saturday, October 30, 2021

Things That Have Been On My Mind Lately

Things That Have Been On My Mind Lately

Somewhere between this guitar solo (B.B. King, The Thrill Is Gone)

and this one (Slash in Guns N' Roses, November Rain, the first melodic solo)

I think there's a Pink Floyd solo, at least in my ear. And for Slash's second solo break here, there's a Screaming Jay Hawkins song that sticks in my ear for some reason.

Continuing something along those lines, somewhere between this (Alexis Korner and B.B. King, Alexis' Boogie)

and this (Steve Gibson's acoustic line on Reba McEntire's version of Fancy)

there's a story about how musicians play for each other. I'd love to know a bit more about how Steve's playing and Reba's singing were recorded, because it sounds to me like the production was layered around those two lines.

Other things on my mind this month? Well, since it's Halloween, I'm thinking about which horror movies folks are thinking about; I've also got a stack of horror stories built up in my to-read pile.

Horror fans have always had their own ways of getting their fix, I've been wondering how that will evolve with the new streaming world. Mostly we seem to have found our own paths again, at least as far as movies and such, with written works coming on fast now.

Thursday, October 28, 2021

Let Them Seek

Here in the gathering gloom before Halloween... This week's story, dear reader, takes us for another visit to the world of the Boyar's Curse, here via another excerpt from the second (upcoming) book in that series, Katerina's Curse. Step with me and let's see what lies beneath the stones of an old estate in the hills above an older city...

Let Them Seek - an excerpt from my upcoming novel Katerina's Curse by M. K. Dreysen

Where a Colonel in the French Army had checked into the hotel, a Baron's lackey checked out. "I will either return tonight, or otherwise inform you of my arrangements."

"Of course, Mister Belanger. We are happy to serve."

If he'd taken the job, Rik could take as well the advantage of the position. The estate, such as it was, lay just a few miles from town. He arranged a horse, rather than a carriage; the stables with rides for rent were an easy walk, at least, from the hotel. "Nothing fancy, please, I need a workhorse, not a show pony."

"Lizzie should do well for you, friend. She's a good worker."

And the mare was; old enough to have patience and young enough to have energy. She allowed Rik, especially after he slipped her a lump of sugar. He'd filled his pocket from the breakfast table.

Rik and Lizzie were at the estate, and he'd made the aquaintance of the groundskeeper, before much of the city had awoken. If his shadows from the night before were early risers, Rik felt no indication of it. This knowledge he horded. It may or may not make a difference, but he'd take any edge he could get.

The estate turned out to be modest. At least in terms of the house. "The family was never large," Ernst, the groundskeeper, told Rik. "Two, maybe three children at most."

And the general?

"The youngest grandson. There were three of that generation, the girls passed away before they could have children. He had joined with Napoleon, made his first visit as baron after Austerlitz."

Was it awkward, then, a baron from the wrong side?

"He smiled, whenever he visited. The folk here are pragmatic, Mister Belanger. The emperors make their wars, and we resign ourselves to the results. A baron with ties to Paris is, by many standards, less than difficult. Julie," and the groundskeeper waved to the north, assuming Rik knew of Julie, "The demesne he works is tied to Moscow. Catherine herself stayed there, many years ago now. At least we don't have to use a different alphabet when we write to Paris."

And the new baron, someone completely new, with no ties to the family?

"I will work the lands, keep all in good management. The world changes, Mister Belanger. I've sent my three little ones to Berlin, and Rome. They will find some new task, I think. Whether it had been the general, or this Baron Caillou, I believe that our little home will soon be sold. Until then, we work."

As promised, the interior of the house was as modest as the exterior. All in stone and wood, no more than one hundred years old, if that. "The family rebuilt after a fire in seventeen seventy-eight," Ernst told him.

There were windows and light, and furniture in the German style. Some of it carved fantastically, all of it walnut and oak and the other hard woods. The kitchen centered the house; a giant coal-burning stove centered the kitchen. Maddie, Ernst's wife and the only other person who lived on the estate permanently, tended all of these things together. "It's easy enough, I do the daily work with no trouble. Spring and fall, I hire whichever of the village children haven't been spoken for. Put them to work with broom and mop and buckets to clear the dust."

"The furniture?" Rik suggested.

"Oh, for God's sake no!" she laughed. "I wax and polish that myself, while they sweep and dust. These things are tough, but they'd wear out just as quick as anything if I made the mistake of turning teenagers loose on them."

The three of them enjoyed coffee around the iron beast; three ovens in the thing, but Maddie kept the coal fires small. "With just the two of us, and our rooms adjoin the barn. I keep it warm enough for coffee and tea during the day, and to make sure I don't freeze in the winter. Ernst eats lunch here with me."

"I don't want you to have to run the whole house just because I'm..." Rik began.

"No," Maddie interrupted. "It's good for me. The place doesn't have the life it did. The general last visited some two years ago, since then we've had no chance to make the house breathe, even a little. You stay here, burn coal in the fireplaces and light candles to read by, and bring warmth to the stones."

Rik smiled now, caught up in her joy. The two of them were, if he'd have guessed, perhaps fifty, if that. Old enough to have three children off to the universities, with the general's aid and blessing if Rik gauged the situation properly. Young enough that grandchildren had yet to arrive.

Ernst, Rik had discovered, was resigned, if not quite cynical about the possibilities. How then Maddie?

She smiled, patted her husband's hand where it wrapped around his coffee cup. "Ernie worries. But we've done for our children what we could do. The general was kind. We'll be ok. Reynard will soon have his own practice, at worst he will have to put up with his parents living in his back room, and we've savings enough to insure that he will be able to do this."

Rik allowed Maddie to fuss over him as she showed him his rooms, not the master suites thank God but the second set of rooms. Similar to the hotel, but larger at least, and plumbed as well for running water. "Ernie's father put the plumbing in, and thank God for it. He empties the water during the winter, so that the pipes don't freeze and we save the money for coal where it isn't needed."

"Should I write a letter for the hotel?" Rik asked, after they'd returned to the kitchen. "I made sure to tell them I'd likely be staying..."

"But you weren't sure what you'd discover," Maddie finished for him. Giggling. "I don't blame you. There are places here, Julie does his best but the fool's by himself. And that old woman in Moscow refuses every request he's ever sent her for money. For repairs, for insuring his crops and gardens are maintained, for anything at all. She wants only the profits. When her children come to inherit, they'll be lucky to piss in the outhouses, if those haven't rotted to hell in the meantime." She giggled again. "Yes, please, write a note for the hotel. You join Ernie, he's dying to show you his gardens and his crops, and the animals as well. And I'll get your luggage here by nightfall."

"Do you need money?"

She blew her lips. "Like hell do I need money. We make our way here, Mister Belanger. And we send good money home when we do it. The Caillou man might sell us off, but it won't be for lack of profit. Now get out of my kitchen, and tell me when you get back how beautiful my pigs are."

Rik didn't have to struggle to complement her pigs. Or the rest of the farm, for that matter. Apple orchards, pigs and chickens and goats, with a cow and her calf lording over it all. "The fields are for rye?" he asked.

"Hay, rye, and we rotate as best we can with peas, cabbage, and turnips. We've thirty acres total, with the woodlot included, plus more in the commons if we need it." Ernst gestured across the low hill that backed the estate. "Across that one. I plant it mostly for habit."

"And to make sure they don't forget your share?"

"That, too."

The barns held tack for the dray horse. And a surprise or two. "That mower came from England, didn't it?"

"And there's a steam-power thresher in the village. The general sent them, and more besides. He didn't spend as much time as he would have liked, but he never forgot how hard it was to work these fields."

"How many hands do you hire?" Rik pressed. The estate wasn't large, by some standards. But thirty acres managed by one middle-aged man...

"Mostly trade in-kind. And the thresher belonging to the estate makes sure there's a lot of in-kind to work with."

Ernst had led them around to the woodlot, which was basically the rough ground and face of the hill. "I keep the pigs out of the apples until there're no groundfalls worth anything. Here, I let 'em root for the acorns and other mast." He pointed out the big oaks, the maples, the birch. The forest kings, hidden away in a pocket. "They anchor the wood. With the coal, now, we don't take anywhere near as many as they did in my grandfather's day."

"Do you send trees to the sawmill, then?"

"Three, this year. Two birch, and a maple. The three of them came down in a storm, so we took stumps and all. Otherwise, I just try to manage the smaller ones and the undergrowth."

The two of them walked between the shadows. Rik appreciated Ernst's management; there were paths between the forest kings, but only a few. The thicket growth was there, enough to mask the deer that had to be there.

And the red squirrels chattering over their heads. "Do you hunt them?"

Ernst shrugged. "I enjoy their gossip. There are enough deer to take one or two per year, but the woodland is really not that big."

"And it's isolated." The hill behind, and the commons on the other side, was surrounded by roads and fields, and the village on the other side of the commons. A pocket, indeed, and overall twenty acres across the hill itself.

Not large enough to hold the concentration of deer that the noble families would prefer. "Did the general participate in hunts?"

"Rarely. He preferred duck hunting, when he had the time. The deer lots here are all similar. Enough for a family, not enough for the sort of hunting parties the Black Forest hosts."

By now, the two men were chasing the sun back to its evening position on the other side of the house. A single-horse carriage made its way up the lane. "That'll be your luggage," Ernst suggested.

Rik nodded. At the start of the walk, he hadn't noticed that the house rested at the bottom of the estate. Here, walking back down, the slight strain on his leg muscles, and the view that the elevation gave him of the lane below, stirred memories. Of tactics, and keeping clear view of an enemy.

"Who's that I wonder, behind him?" Ernst asked. "There," and he pointed.

Rik held his hands over his face, to shade his eyes. That Ernst had seen the person standing at the end of the lane impressed him. "A young man..." Rik began. And then he felt, smelled, that sense of unreality he'd been so involved in the night before. "Ah," he said. He stopped himself before he went further, aware of his companion.

Ernst grunted. Instead of putting his hands over his eyes, he pulled the brim of his hat down further. "He doesn't look familiar, he's no local."

"Do I get to guess how you figure that?"

"City clothes," Ernst replied.

Rik let his hands drop. Knowing that, from here, he'd look natural watching the carriage continue its way to the house. But standing there longer would probably give the watching creature reason to be suspicious. "Let's continue our walk, Ernst. And, I guess I'll need to tell you something of what I saw last night." So he did that. Briefly.

Rik left out of his story the business with the master, and the meeting. Rik assumed that the estate manager would have a limit to his credulity.

And Rik had no intention of dragging Ernst or Maddie into whatever this was. But he had to warn them that the creature standing at the end of the lane was no friend.

Ernst didn't say anything. The carriage was there, and they concentrated on unloading the trunks. Rik paid the carriage driver, thanked him, and then the two of them finished bringing the trunks up to Rik's room.

Ernst put his trunk down and moved to the window. Maddie had pulled the shades back, and opened the glass to let the breeze do its work. "There he is," Ernst said. "Stay back, you'll still be able to watch him."

Rik moved up behind Ernst. The two of them stood there, until the carriage moved past the creature. The carriage didn't stop, it just slowed down long enough for the target of their interest to climb up beside the driver.

"I wonder if my hotel wasn't a mistake?" Rik suggested.

"The nationalists have many connections," Ernst said. "More likely he offered a bribe. Or the driver is part of their circle."

"I don't want you and Maddie in danger, Ernst."

Ernst snorted. "The nationalists are no threat to us." He continued when he saw Rik's skeptical face. "Oh, they don't want Germans here. They just want their own stories, language."

"History..."

Ernst shrugged. "You wondered why I'm so sure we'll need to sell. I think that, rather than fight with my neighbors, we'll leave. And let the world change as it will."

Rik didn't want to ask the question. He did it anyway. "Is there anything odd about that one, the other man?"

Ernst led the way down the stairs. "Perhaps he's been injured, did you notice his crooked back?"

And that was the end of it. If Ernst carried any uneasiness about the creature, as Rik perceived the man, Rik couldn't detect it.

Rik pondered this over dinner with the couple. He had seen, been party to, many unusual situations over the centuries. Not least his own introduction to those his daughter called the shadow children. Leftovers, memories of an older world. He'd come to trust his instincts, had Rik. He'd had to, all things considered.

And he'd come to know that very few people listened to their own, similar instincts. Rik didn't believe this part of his curse was a gift, along with time and strength and health. No, he'd learned rather that, if he had any advantage over others, it was that he'd had long, long quiet nights aplenty to learn his own mind. And to trust it when it warned him.

Or suggested a different tactic. "Maddie," he began as she closed up the kitchen. Ernst had left as soon as the plates were cleaned, to tend the animals.

She stopped him. "Ernst told me of the spy who followed your luggage. And that Ernie thinks him part of a nationalist ring being nosy."

"I worry there's more to it than that," Rik replied. And so he repeated his story of the evening before. Of the heavy, rank smell that had greeted him at the train station. Of the shadow that had investigated his room at the hotel.

And, unlike for Ernst, of the meeting in the lost alley, between the creatures who'd followed him and their master. "I believe that he summoned these spirits, Maddie, and bound them to a human form."

Rik waited then. She would ask...

"And how do you come to believe this? What right do you have to such knowledge?"

"I've had occasion to learn, to my detriment." He'd never had reason to tell his story. Rik wasn't about to start now. "But I suspect that I'm not the only one here with such knowledge. Who are these creatures, Maddie? And why would they be so interested in me? Or the estate?"

"God help us if that's the case," Maddie said. She signed herself, then. And, instead of blowing out the last candle, sitting in a brass holder at the corner of the kitchen counter nearest the back door, she lifted it and led him to the kitchen table. "Here, there's tea enough for another cup."

Rik pulled two cups from the board next to the sink and joined her at the table. "Do you know their master, then?"

"Know?" she asked. Then shook her head to negate it. "Not him. Heard, suspected? That," and she sighed. Heavily. "Yes, I've heard rumors. Of a man who's dug himself through a mountain's worth of old libraries. Looking for lost knowledge, mysteries."

Rik remembered the walk down from the hill, then. Three, perhaps four small estates, such as the one Julie ran. All of them within easy gossip distance. Part of the village itself, the old bones of old kingdoms. At least one or two of them, likely, held libraries.

And within all of the reach of Bohemia? How many such homes, castles, forts tumbled-down to scant shade or shelter from snow and rain? Enough for the rumors to flow with the gossip. Maddie told him of these whispers. "Supposedly, the man is from Istanbul."

Constantinople, Rik's memory whispered. Memories threatened him. He'd let them wash over his mind, later when he could allow them to percolate. "He's hunting shadows."

"Just so."

"Apparently, he found some," Rik said.

Maddie pushed her finger through the still-soft wax where it puddled at the drip-pan of the candlestick. "If your suspicion is true, perhaps. Or perhaps he brought this particular knowledge with him, these shadows."

Rik took the advice seriously. In one sense, it didn't much matter when or how or where the summoner had learned this trick. Maddie was reminding him, however, that if Rik jumped to conclusions on this question, then he'd likely miss something important when it did matter. "And either he's jumped into the Czech movement..."

"Or he's using them as tools of convenience."

The two seekers after rumor sipped their tea in silence for a few minutes. The older of the two contemplated his new suspicions, and the wisdom of his companion. "My chief concern is your safety. Whether they're interested in me alone, or the estate itself."

Maddie didn't look at him. Instead, she gazed at the candle's flame.

Then, she set the tea cup down, in exchange for the candlestick. "Come, there's something you'll need to see."

She led him to the stairway. And around, to the door to the coat closet tucked beneath the stairs. When she opened this small room, he found what he'd expected at this time of year: A dusty little unused enclave, awaiting the fall weather change.

Maddie leaned in, then down. She fumbled with something, and then pulled a hook free, rotating it from beneath two floor boards. Rik saw this detail when she asked him to lift the stone beneath. "It's heavy enough I don't lift it by myself, if I don't need to."

He recognized this. Almost one hundred pounds, if he judged it right. Easy enough for him, the simple flagstone, but Maddie must have needed a prybar if she did this herself. "Who else knows of this?" Rik asked.

"Ernie. The general, God rest him. And now you. Go ahead, walk down. There's not enough room, otherwise." She handed him the candlestick. "You'll need this."

Which he was glad of. His night sight was good enough, but underground there wasn't the least starlight. The candle's flickering light showed him a well-built set of stairs, oak, simply but strongly built, falling away.

To a tiny room full of books and scrolls. Bare, without the shelves, Rik could have touched both walls simultaneously. With the shelves, he kept his elbows in. And his back stooped, the ceiling couldn't have been more than five feet in height. "Family records?" he asked.

Maddie sat down on the stairs. There was room for only the one. "Ledgers, journals. They survived the fire, apparently, so the family built this place to protect them."

She'd told him before that "The family" was a stretch. The general's great-grandmother had inherited because she'd been goddaughter to the last heir. And his family had inherited three or four generations before that for a similar reason. But "The family" remained, here. In ink and dust, crackling parchment and leather aged to fragility.

The stones of the ceiling and floor were his only view of the construction of the place. Close-set, precision-cut; the barest hint of mortar between joints barely a knife's blade in width. Hints of rust here and there. "It's caged in iron."

She nodded. "To hold the stones."

"To protect the books from prying senses."

She didn't deny it. Maddie simply let him explore the shelves.

The vast majority of the papers seemed just what she'd said. Ledgers, of barley oat and rye harvests. Pigs slaughtered, poor seasons for rain or too much snow. An old bible, a book of latin poetry.

The feeling snuck up on him, somewhere between the poetry and a hymnal. That tense brief contraction of the muscles at the base of his skull, wanting to pin his ears back. Something more hid here. He moved to the bottom shelf, in the back left corner.

"I wondered..." Maddie said.

How deeply I'd dig, Rik thought. Whatever the iron binding of the stones did to ground this collection, within the space his instincts were fully aware.

His hands found three books, two larger volumes and a smaller volume. Without looking, he'd have called the smaller one a testament, a pocket book of prayers perhaps. The kind he'd seen in Jerusalem, first, when he'd wandered among the pilgrims some six hundred years prior. Each carrying their faith, loose-held or tightly woven.

But this was something else entirely. "Goddamn that man," he whispered, when he got a look at the cover of the little book.

"What's that?" Maddie asked. Rik didn't answer. He was too busy chasing memories.

Before the Grimm brothers found their niche, before Andersen, a Russian monk had spent some few decades scouring these lands for stories. Of gnomes and trolls and old gods lost.

Rik flipped the pages, for a little story hidden in the middle of the three hundred pages. His story. "The Lost Boyar" Iosif Fedorivich had named Rik in those pages. Which Rik considered close enough to the truth; that's not what irritated him.

It was that Iosif had found so many pieces of the truth. Not the curse, and Rik thanked God for that part, at least. But Iosif had learned of the slaughter, and Rik's escape from it. "The Boyar went out from the burnt castle, and lost himself in the affairs of men and women of foreign lands."

Rome, Britain. Iceland. Then back east, and farther. To Asia, then down to Egypt and Africa. Back, some centuries later, through Jerusalem, where Rik had lost himself in the Crusades, a hermit, a healer patching together those poor souls, pilgrim or local, caught in the midst of the madness. "And I brought back a few baubles, stories..." Rik murmured. A diamond from Africa, a scroll from China. A tiny figure of the Buddha, from India, carved from jade.

Memories of his travels. Legends, when he'd parted with them some two hundred miles away from this cellar. For a beer and a request for stories.

Of such moments are fables woven, Rik reminded himself. The tale had grown in the telling, and Iosif had faithfully reproduced it inside his pages. What to do, Rik wondered.

He set the tiny fablerium aside in favor of the other books. An anatomy, because of course there would be such, in Arabic. "This is older than the family, by far," Rik pointed out.

And so too the final book. In Hebrew and Arabic both, this one. "This is the Shaprut Scholaria."

"You've seen it?" she said, shocked.

"No, but I've heard of it." Hasdai ibn Shaprut, patron, protector of a little group of scholars and scientists and minister to the Andalusian caliphs. Legend had it that Shaprut corresponded widely, to the Khazars, to Byzantium. Croatia. The Scholaria too had been rumoured, a collection of the best of the minds Shaprut had collected. Their thoughts on the caliphs, philosophy, science. The Qabbalah.

"One wonders just how the family came to be here."

Maddie nodded. "The hints are in the earliest journals. There are a few written in Hebrew. The very first. But within a decade, they'd switched over to German entirely."

"Baptism?"

She shrugged. "None of them discuss the why of it. It just happened. The pogrom in Prague, I'd guess."

Rik murmured a prayer for the lost. He'd been a world away, returned just a few years after that particular fever of the fourteenth century had passed. To a region learning to hide the scars. "And the gossip claims this man is hunting books?" he asked.

"Every library he can bribe his way into."

Rik paged through the Scholaria. "I've known a few who would do murder for books." He closed it, set it aside with the other two. "I suspect this man is one of them."

"And these books?" she asked.

Rik shook his head. "For these, if he's what you and I have reasons to suspect? For these books, he'll do far worse than murder."